Saturday, March 11, 2017

Middle Age Changes

Everyone goes through this and I truly believe women are better equipped to handle this. I will be 46 soon and over the past year or do, there have been changes going on that for the most part are tolerable but sometimes can be embarrassing. Maybe embarrassing is not the right word; uncomfortable, different, unexpected. As I have aged, I don't see myself getting older. I still work out regularly, for the most part and I still like to get out there and have a good time. Yes, my hair is gone, my eyesight is slightly worse, and I don't recover as quickly as I did when I was younger from certain activities like drinking or hard workouts. In fact, if I suffer a minor injury, it takes twice as long now to recover than just five years ago. To me, this is expected and I can tolerate it. However, there is one thing happening that I knew would happen but is still hard to accept. That is the flooding of emotions that have entered my system. I know why this is happening physically, but dealing with it mentally and, well, emotionally, is sometimes hard. There will be times when I am watching a sitcom or movie comedy but during an emotional scene, my eyes will well up with tears. It won't happen for a week or two and then, BAM, here they come. Forget about dramas or emotional shows, like This is Us, or Silver Linings Playbook....I may end up being a wreck at the end. What is pretty cool is that Diane and the girls don;t clown me about it. I sometimes talk about this and they are OK with dad tearing up. Maybe that's the best thing I can do as a dad is let them know, it's OK to get emotional once in a while and not be afraid to be emotional. I want them to know it's OK to have feelings and express them as well. Of course, sometimes, you have to keep them in check depending on the situation.
So, I am dealing with this by sharing my experiences. I may write about it more or whatever comes to my mind. It's been too long and writing helps me. This will sound cliche, but it gives me some balance and that's one thing we all strive to have. I mean, I don't want to be that cantankerous old man neighbor in his boxers, robe and slippers yelling at them got-dam kids making all that got-damn noise. Instead, I'll just go watch a M*A*S*H episode and tear up when a serious issue comes up. It will make me feel better afterward.